Pondok Gede, 14 Desember 2014

These questions hit me when I was struggling to dry the laundry at the balcony;
What have I done with my life?
Do I have a definite plan for my future?
And how would I portray myself in 5 years?

How, Nyanya?

I was just squeezing the wet clothes then answered shockingly to myself, “I don’t know.”

Saya bukannya gak punya sama sekali bayangan apa yang saya mau terjadi di kehidupan saya di 5 tahun mendatang. Secara garis besar saya sudah berkeluarga, menjadi istri yang baik dari suami yang baik dan menjadi ibu yang baik dari anak (-anak) yang baik. I’m going to have the finest family. Bahkan dari bayangan saya yang paling liar saya bisa melihat saya sekeluarga yang sedang piknik kecil-kecilan di taman di Eropa. Iya, saya memang belum move on dari Eropa hahaha. But being a wife and a mother in Europe for 2-3 years with fun housework list to do, do grocery things with kids walking with me, doing run & catch with them while breathing fresh air, and busy trying to cook Indonesian foods for the husband and kids, are the deepest wishes I want to accomplish.

Tapi selebihnya saya belum punya bayangan apa yang akan saya sudah capai di bertahun-tahun mendatang tersebut.

At one point of my life, I’m stuck in a place where I don’t feel any movement and I almost reach the end limit. Perhaps move on will be the best answer for now, since I’m the one who design my life and it is me who should do something to make it better, brighter, and be more passionate.

Sekarang begitu saya nulis ini, saya jadi geli sendiri kenapa bisa-bisanya kepikiran hal yang rumit gitu pas jemur kaos oblong dan daster di balkon. Hahaha. Sometimes the deepest thought occurs at the bizarre place, right?

Have a nice weekend, Guys!

Ps: sometimes ‘move on’ isn’t always related with love thingies 😉

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